Day 26 Him

“There's no point in trying to hide who you are to others, if you're being yourself and people dont like you. You just aren't meant to be around those people.”

I just remembered those words of his. As someone who apologizes when I talk too much, this hits pretty close to home. I feel bad when I'm being myself, I don't say things that come to mind because I'm worried about what people will think of it. I've somehow resigned myself to being someone who just listens in on conversations, reacting if I'm brought up, but never initiating. 

He wasn't like that though. He was so outgoing, talking so much people would have to ask him to stop. I loved the way he could just have fun with anyone around him. Nothing he did or said really ever made sense, but it didn't matter to him. Charismatic and filled with hope. I'll never understand how he was so carefree, how he had such a laid back way of life. Bubbly was the best way to describe him. He went out of his way to meet and talk to everyone, and he loved making sure everyone felt included. He would go up and talk to you like you were his old longtime friend. No awkward getting to meet you on stage. No wondering how weird I should be with him. He was so himself and open about it. You felt like you had to be yourself around him too. I forgot why so many people knew him, why I would hear about him all the time. 

But a rush of nostalgia brought back the memories of him.

He was happy.

He was charming.

He was confident.

He was welcoming.

He was always making plans.

He was me.