Ozzy day 27 running from yourself

You can't run from yourself.

It's easy to think that you are different if you go somewhere different. That moving to a new country will be the kick I need to achieve everything I dream of. The sad reality is that no matter where I go, no matter where I am. I'm still me. For better or for worse. I wish I could use moving as a fuel source to stroke my ambition. It really isn't that easy. My bad habits follow me to the better places. I might be doing better in some ways. But my weaknesses still rear their ugly heads when I need to do better. Distance from your problems can help for sure. But most of my problems are internal. It's kinda hard to distance from yourself lol. I think when I tell myself I'll do so much better when I move somewhere else is just my own decisions. It's me pretending I can do better than I really can. Or maybe even me right now being disappointed in myself so I tell myself that moving is what's going to change me for the better. It's the same old same old. I procrastinate. And say that the next day will be better for work. It will be easier tomorrow. I have lots of time left in the day. It is lies to myself like those that keep me locked in this cycle of mediocrity. I just have to be better here and now. Not later somewhere else. The me in the far future will be the same insufficient me now, unless I do something in the present to change it. The me of right now needs to build to a better and stronger me of the future.